Three days until classes start again. i have over loaded my schedule and i still need to get work done before the 20th. i let time slip away from me. there were so many things that i wanted to do before my summer ended that i didn't get to do or achieve. but, eh, it's summer you're supposed to be lazy, or at least that's what i allow myself to think. my friend has offically moved. she is in Canada right now and 6 more days she will be in Alaska. I'm physched for the Twilight movie even though the stupid Harry Potter people have moved their movie back nine months b/c he's doing his nude play thing on broadway and they don't want Daniel to have to answer questions about the movie while he's trying to break away from the Harry Potter stereotype. (What more perfect way to do that than to get nude in front of large audiences?) Stupid Warner Brothers, but now, Twilight is earlier and i get to oogle both Robert Pattison and Taylor Laurent at the same time (big Taylor fan, but a big Edward rooter. funny huh?)
so now, as i sit here at one fifty eight in the morning, trying to get to sleep has become impossible as i face the reality that i can't pretend to not notice people i know since i don't want to deal with anybody since Emma's moved away.
For me, summer's always been an excuse to get away from the suffocating friendships and try and distance yourself from them. Which always works, my mistake is that i keep making new friends during the year. But this year is different. i am refusing to make new friends. From this point on may i wear the sign "Does Not Play Well With Other Children". i am sick of stupid drama, stupid girls, stupid hormones and stupid shallow people who think they can get whatever they want. Stupid social system that won't let you extradite yourself from people without being called a loser. i am not a loser, i'm just realizing that school is more important than people--which in essence it is--. Why do people care what i do with myself anyway? Why do parents constantly give my sad eyes and keep asking me who i'm going to hang out with. Why does it matter?
Before Emma moved it was always "Even though you have your friends, school is more important." now it's "Don't hide behind your books."
But whatever, my rant is finished with.
A new year, a new reputation, a new life (what little of is a 15 year old is allowed to have) and a new work ethic.